In a conversation with someone last night, I realized that I had been
leading worship for more than 20 years.
It's interesting to think about that, considering that's more than half
of my life. Corporate worship is a very
poignant thing to me. We come together
as a community of faith, our hearts united to bring glory and honor to the One
who has saved us, who calls us His own.
It's not about us, it's about Him.
A few years back, I wanted to bring the teams that I led through a
teaching time on worship. I looked
around to see if I could find appropriate curriculum, but I felt like
everything I found was coming up short.
So, I sat down, and over a course of months, I put together my own
curriculum. It wasn't perfect, but it
was a start.
When I finished it, I had to think of something appropriate to call
it. Simply calling it "Worship
Study" wasn't really satisfactory, at least, not to me. I had been a fan of much of what was coming
out of a church in Australia called "Hillsong" for a number of
years. I had read the books written by
their worship leader and was fond of the songs that were being put out by
them. Many years earlier, they had put
out an album called, "Touching Heaven, Changing Earth." It seemed a fairly appropriate description of
what we do when we come together as a community to worship God. We seek to allow the words of the Lord's
Prayer to come true, that God's kingdom would come, on earth as it is in
heaven.
My church has been experiencing some amount of difficulty as of late,
but we have seen God's hand in the midst of it all. In fact, on the day that much of the difficulty
came to a head, without any knowledge of what would be taking place, we had
planned a night of corporate worship.
Many people, after having had very difficult afternoons dealing with
some of the circumstances, came together that evening for the sole purpose of
worshipping God. God had planned for us
to come together, perfectly ordained it, for a time of worship and
healing. He brought us together, not to
focus on ourselves, but to focus on Him, the One who has always and will always
provide for our needs.
In 20+ years of leading worship, I have never experienced an evening
of worship with such poignancy. There
was something different about that night, and when it all came to an end, there
was almost a sense that people did not want to leave. People found something in the presence of God
that could not be found elsewhere.
I know that there are many people who decry contemporary praise songs
for their emotionalism and sentimentality, but anyone who knows me, knows that
I do my best to be prayerful and thoughtful as I choose which songs that we
sing as a congregation. All of the songs
that we sang together that night spoke deep into the heart of where we were,
and I had chosen them well before the events of that day. I have no doubt that the Holy Spirit was
instrumental in making those decisions.
Today is a new day. The
difficulties are not behind us, but there is brightness ahead. We may not see clearly everything on the path
before us, but God gives us just enough light to keep our anxiety at bay and
withholds enough so that we never think that we can do it without His help. We are on a journey, an adventure of sorts,
as we are written into the story of God.
As we come together, seeking to be used by God for His purpose, my
prayer is that we can touch heaven and change earth, and in the midst of it, we
will be changed ourselves.
I remember my father several years ago, then 88 years old, who experienced worship with Jon Gibson, said to me,"As long as he leads with that kind of heart, he will do fine." My dad was certainly of the era of strait-laced, clean cut (short hair, no beards, etc)church leaders, but he also saw inner genuineness and Christ likeness.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your heart, Jon. Meant alot to my dad and means alot to my husband (and me).